From the moment we are born, people tell us that the world is like this and like that, this way, that way. It is natural that – for a certain period of time – we end up believing what we are told. But we must soon push these ideas aside and discover our own way of living reality. – Carlos Castaneda

Sometimes we have to swim against the current because only dead fishes go with the flow. – forwarded text. (let me know who I can properly quote this from)

You shall not covet anything that belongs to your neighbor. – Exodus 20:17

Tsk. I wish I can explain everything I’m thinking concisely. I might visit this post again in the future and will wonder what was running through my head during this time.

Hmm… partly maybe I’m trying to rationalize the “craziness” of my traveling alone. Yes, puro ganun ang reaction ng mga kaibigan nung madiskubre nila ang ginawa ko: “Di ko kinakaya ang topak mo!” Pero kahit pano, it was a calculated risk. I had my hair cut boyishly short to at least give the impression of not being the kind of girl that pervs can easily mess with. And well, I’m planning to take up grappling and boxing again.

Basta, I’m trying to discover my own way of living reality and not try to covet what others have in their life because it looked better because they seem happy and contented. I want to be really happy again knowing that my own truth makes me happy and not because society and other people say that so-and-so reality could make me complete. Hmm… Do I make sense to you?

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BTW, for those who are subscribed to my site feed, I’ll be deleting it tomorrow. I’m not sure when I’ll bring it back up. So for those who’d still want to follow my blog just do visit the site. I’ll try to update it as much as possible. I’ll just let you know if ever I bring the feeds back up.

I just don’t know what to post for I haven’t yet done much geek stuff with this new employer, nor I have done much exercising to rave about since I started smoking again. So there’s nothing to post so that I keep this blog updated except for random boring stuff of day to day; these are just my usual uninteresting “twits” beyond the 140 characters. Got to find a fun meme to post or else I’ll start posting them blog surveys.

It was my first time to add an album to my account. My first intent in doing so was to let my contacts do most of the tagging for me just because I’m a lazy-ass who does not really have a good memory. My second was to find more friends within my network so I could add them as my contact. I didn’t really expect that it was a strong enough trigger to make us all take a stroll along down the memory lane. But as I’ve said to a friend amidst all the chaotic commenting on the pictures that I’ve posted, I’m so glad I uploaded those pictures. I believe it served as a good break from the rat race called work that most of my batchmates and I have jumped into. It was a ray of sunshine against the gloom of our transition to adulthood. It was a comforting thought that somewhere back in time, we were young, spirited, and care-free and that it is ok to take a break and go back to those times even if it was only through the comments section of a picture on facebook.

I feel happy with the fb statuses expressing their amusement and longing for the company of friends back during the best days of our lives.

Looking forward to seeing more scanned pictures of such happy memories from my facebook contacts! Cheers!

• Hindi ka makatulog,
• Hindi makakain,
• Parang nasisiraan ka ng ulo, at
• Siya ang laman ng utak mo magdamag

Ganun din pala nararamdaman kung brokenhearted ka.

Hahaha narinig ko yata ito sa isang movie ni Regine. )

Pero oo nga, bakit nga naman ganun?

Ang pagkakaiba lang siguro, kapag in love ka, ngiti ka ng ngiti na parang siraulo pero kung brokenhearted ka, iyak ka ng iyak na parang siraulo.

I stumbled upon an FOSS 3D content creation software last week and here I am fantasizing yet again my dream on becoming an animator. I have dreamed of becoming one when Pixar started coming up with those amazing animation movies. Unfortunately, I lack the knack of being artistic yet fortunately, I think I’m not really hopeless enough that I can bring it out through study and practice.

Oh, FOSS, FOSS, FOSS! I am happy that there are free and open source alternatives to your favorite enterprise applications. And since its open source, you really need not wait for the next release to get that functionality that you deemed so important. Well of course if you are a developer, you could be the one to add the functionality. If not, well, if your idea is truly good, I bet some programmer may have already worked on it; just search and build.

There are news of right-sizing left and right, and not from sme’s but from those huge mnc’s: 500, 1000, 1500 employees laid off, eoc’d or what-have-you’s. It has got me thinking, how safe is it to venture out there just to get away from a depressing and seemingly dead-end job with this current employer? How could I recession-proof myself? I guess I just have to deal with the red tape and embrace the small annoyances here as opportunities for learning, for now; it is safer to suck it up and stay than go out there and jostle for that limited number of openings of that “better employer” against the thousands of recently fired IT professionals and just graduated college students.

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Now, I wonder how low will it cost to hire an IT professional here in the Philippines with the recession going on? I wish this will even out soon.

Sad though that this laptop was able to persist through college Java projects. I was able to run a Java ME from Jasper before! O well, I’ll try all other approach. I’ll let you know once I get this running.

I also tried learning Ajax before but just did not have enough patience to understand it and then build so-and-so functions from the ground up. Well, there are Javascript frameworks now out there, thank goodness! It helped build Javascript libraries that allows me to write less yet do more.

While link surfing this morning, I was quite surprised that even CSS has a framework. A CSS Framework? That’s something new, well, at least for me. Interesting… So I guess that’s another new thing to read up and try out.

I was trying to troubleshoot my development environment last night. Still, nothing. Either Jasper couldn’t handle the hardware requirements to run it or might as well try to re-download all files and re-install them.

Might be the second option. I refuse to give up!