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Oh, hullo.

kelay — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 19:49:44 +0000

Stalkers? o_O Backreading?

Sorry naman sa drama ng 2009 ko. Rough year.

I speak in riddles and I mostly ramble so if my posts got you curious, interviewhin niyo nalang ako – or formspring me.

Gah!

kelay — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 06:04:47 +0000

Gaaaah! Been too busy moving on and making some changes that I’ve lost the drive to update this for the looooongest time.

What’s my purpose of creating this site again?

Damn lost.

Damn missing him a lot.

Looking Forward Again

kelay — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 16:24:15 +0000

…. to the end of November because I get to spend a few days with my bestfriend.
… December, Christmas, no matter how bleak every aspect of my life had been during this season of the previous years, it still a time to <3.
… end of January, because Tita and cousin will be coming home from Canada.
… February, well… hopefully Ate and her family will be able to come to the Phils.

… March, there’s nothing YET. Though hopefully, there’ll be.

I’ll make sure there’ll be something for me on March. Hopefully I can give time to work on my March 2010 soon. *crosses fingers*

Lies!

kelay — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 11:22:35 +0000

You said I was your soulmate.
… and then you sold your soul to the devil.

Har. Fail.
- Hahaha naisip ko lang. Nainspire kasi ako sa fuck yeah love eh.

I want

kelay — Fri, 16 Oct 2009 05:32:46 +0000

been lurking around a cousin’s tumblr.
and loving another cousin’s just random tweets.
and another cousin’s photog addiction albums.
would love to be a lot closer with them coz they seem such a very smart lot.

<3 family. they’re so smart even as a young bunch. they put people the same age as me and older to shame.

I really, really miss my Kuya E. It was his birthday yesterday. I bet, he will know what to say… and I could’ve learned a whole lot more when he’s still around.

I grabbed this from one of my cousins’ entry:

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.

Now, wouldn’t that be nice?

My Love Horrorcope for Today

kelay — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 07:16:37 +0000

I don’t really lean heavily on astrology stuff. Yes, sure. Gravity itself on earth do affect us in some trival way and could result, in some complicated way, affect how we go about it this world. But its relative really. Andaming factors. Pero if I do read up on my horoscope, it’s more on for my entertainment.

Anyway, this is what I got from a horoscope application on facebook today. And I just find it kinda amusing.

Someone in your immediate environment is going to upset you today, Aquarius, and this will have a direct impact on your romantic affairs. You may find yourself irritated with a partner or romantic interest, particularly if they are displaying a lack of control when it comes to their own romantic desires or objectives. This is simply a case where you need to take on an authoritative position and set limits to the person in question, a little bit of boundaries have never hurt anyone. You can accomplish all of this without being domineering, and your romantic affairs will progress nicely as a result. This period of challenge is very short lived, so don’t sweat it too much.

Hahaha I don’t know! Swak lang. I don’t know about disruption of romantic affairs because obviously it is already completely obliterated.

Taking Chances

kelay — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 18:23:49 +0000

So…
it is you again.
My chosen one.
The one who placed a glowing smile back to my face.
The one who puts a joy back into my heart.
After that same person broke my heart.

No…
I’m not in love with you.
THAT will take time…

But…
Maybe, if we respond to the hands of fate in a perfect way…

I’ll find myself falling in love with you…
… and you with me too.

Now, wouldn’t that be nice?
<3

Love

kelay — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 06:58:51 +0000

I’m not sure who to give credit to the list / image … but anyway…

(got to stop moving about tumblr)

Thinking of saying goodbye…

kelay — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 06:51:21 +0000

… to this wordpress blog. What say you? Hold on to it or let go?

I can always go back anyway. And get a new domain if someone claims it.

I’m thinking of going tumblr.

My internet footprint is getting so big.

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together.” – Marilyn Monroe

These are my confessions…

kelay — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 07:26:59 +0000

I have a confession to make: I skyjumped 61 stories high weeks ago and I was not one bit scared.

I’m not being all cool and boastful of not being jittery in anticipation of the jump; in fact, it really truly bothered me, hence this blog post. That fact that I was not scared, scares me. I could speak and walk pre-jump as if what I was going to do was nothing more than a stroll in the park. I couldn’t feel the adrenalin pumping through my system. Nothing. I waited until I was standing on the edge; I looked down the great height. Nothing.

why am I all bothered with this? Again, a confession: I think i’m getting too apathetic to my liking. I don’t like that one bit. I think it was okay before, just being laid-back with everything but it’s starting to transform into apathy and indifference. I feign concern and excitement; I just couldn’t fool myself well enough it just depresses me.

I’m just thankful for my self-awareness. I just pray that I still continue care to be self-aware and to undo this in me before I brush all this off as being to serious with life. I need to find a change. In perspective, in my daily habit.

Another confession: I believe I can already let go of the pain from the previous months’ dramas but I am still holding on to it… I’d rather the pain than indifference.

*groan* I think I really am in deep ruins.

I know, I know… no one’s really stopping me in turning it back to genuine concern and love… but I’m not yet ready for it yet. So I just keep holding on to any emotions even if its just hurt for now.